HERE WE GO AGAIN

 Wow it's been almost 4 years since I came here. 

Life happened - and no am not complaining am actually grateful of the journey it has been. The wins, the learnings in all things I give thanks.

Last week I managed to write down my Vision for 2026 - this year was a bit different for the first time I was moved to start with a gratitude challenge. Was looking at my board from 2019 and realised I was actually leaving the dream of some things I was praying for and didn't even realize I had crossed that bridge. So yes write your vision and make it plain - this would have easily slipped and I was reminded to pause and reflect on the goodness of God.

Just a highlight of one of my prayer points on my vision boards was to travel the world - didn't have a passport, see the irony, and I had given 3 international countries to be precise -this was from 2019. I wrote it and forgot, so every year it features plainly at the backdoor as the last items listed, the things you put in the garage and forget. In 2025 finally, I applied for my passport and got it in September of that year and as fate would have it an opportunity came from my workplace to travel and I took it - lesson for another day (Don't be afraid to ask) and yes I had my maiden international travel. And as if God wasn't tired of showing His glory - our itinerary changed because of the visa application and what seemed as a denial was actually a blessing in disguise - managed to tour the 3 countries as was always listed in my Vision - Germany, Switzerland and France. "Death and Life are in the power of the tongue, and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof." - I renamed myself Madam International and yes I am living this dream in Jesus name. 

So why did I come back here after this long.

A friend opened up on their struggle with trying to conceive and I encouraged her that, this was a testimony of a journey I also went through. Shared my testimony on this podcast so that she may know that this too shall pass - this mountain shall be lifted. So yes don't forget to share your story it may be the encouragement for someone to keep pushing to hold on to that straw. To be honest I even forgot the pain this journey was - so this is the beauty of time - it heals. 

Don't give up - wake up and trust in God. This too shall pass.

As you start the new year:

1. Don't be afraid to dream, take the limits off God and ASK BIG.

2. Let go of everything that didn't work and hold on to faith better things are ahead. Your latter days will be better than your former.

3. Do not ignore self care - body, mind, spiritual - be better, challenge yourself more and bring out the best in you.

4. BELIEVE - All things are possible. Times and Chances happen to all men. At the right time God makes things beautiful - always remain expectant.

Happy New Year Beloveds.

With Love,

the Woman in ME.

FAITH THAT MOVES A MOUNTAIN

 IT IS WELL

"And far be it from me to not believe, Even when my eyes can't see. And this mountain that is infront of me will be thrown into the midst of sea"

What is your mountain? Does it have a name? Label it.

Romans 10:17

"So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God."

We all go through challenges, seasons that may seem to take longer than we may bear. Another new year, the same prayer. How many years have you prayed for the fruit of womb? How many years have you prayed for that house? How many years have you prayed for healing? How many years have you prayed for that job? How many years have you prayed for a sign, a breakthrough?

IT IS WELL.

"For the battle is not yours, but God's....."

Speak to your mountain. Everything has ears. What does the bible say about what you are going through. All answers are inthe scriptures. Through it all let your eyes be fixed on God, who will give you the grace to endure it all and remove all, flatten your mountain.

God does not work with doubt. Choose to believe and believe whole heartedly, not shaken. Your faith to be stronger. Only then you can command your mountain backed up with the word of God.

IT IS WELL.

Be positive, there is a time for everything, there are seasons, tough times don't last. Rejoice, fake even confidence, whatever you do don't fall into pity party which will only drag you back. Encourage each other with love. SPEAK, DECLARE there is power within you. Holy Spirit dwells with in you.

JUST BELIEVE. IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL.

with Love,

the WOMAN in me.

SHALL WE CATCH UP?

 Happy happy new year.

Sounds cliche but yes really Happy new year am sending you all the good and positive vibes that come with the new year cause we all need it.

Thank God for a new year. Feels like another chance God gives you to start over, set new goals. The past is gone, a chance to reflect and see what worked and what did not work.

This year I have taken the goal setting a little serious. Had a little distraction last year when I felt I didn't get to achieve most of the things I had on my vision board. Felt like I had failed but thank God for a friend who reminded me of the wins I had achieved in my year. See those were not even on my goals but alignment is key.

Maybe we can help each other this time round, that we may be able to identify the small wins even as we wait for the bigger picture. So I realised in my goal settings I was always an elephant expecting to give birth the same time as a Virginian opposum( had to google this, the gestation period is actually 12days wow)

What am I doing different? Am actually using the help of a coach, in her book she clearly narrates the goal setting process with clear guidelines, simplicity and online tests to get you to the right track.  Breaking them down to different areas of your life:- family, relationships, health and well being, personal development, career growth, finances, environment, fun hobbies & recreation. You might have been crucifying yourself and you actually did well in one of these many areas only that you did not realise it was a win. The task is to rate yourself in all areas and have short term and long term goals towards them, identify daily routines/ action points that you need to get to your goal and have daily routine checks, focus and to do list. 

Sound easy right? Atleast now you can track your progress and wins, form a habit which will eventually create a lifestyle we hope to manifest. Simple? or maybe not, you choose. But definitely worth my coins and effort.

I have now SMART goals: Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant and Time Based.

You should too. If you had this figured it all along, Keep keeping on, am sure you are enjoying your results. If this is a first for you, you are not too late, its actually a new year you are right on time. Wishing you all the best.

I am routing for you as I route for myself.

Happy prosperous new year.

with Love,

the WOMAN in me.

SOARING HIGH

 Are they treating you well?

Is the food nice in here?

Would you imagine that was the ice breaker I used when visiting a friend in hospital. Who does that? Was it funny? I got a few laughs though, so that's good enough I think so, I will term myself a funny woman or at least I know I make my sister laugh. She usually says I make her day. This phrase I have heard many times now am confident in my other career as a comedian.

On that Career path I found myself confessing another path to a friend. There are these conversations you have @35,000ft altitude just to relax your mind or is it to remind yourself that you are still needed in the universe and have life ahead of you. A bit of disclaimer though it is better to air out to a stranger but don't try this with someone who knows you unless you are ready for the truth.

"I want to be an author - to write a book"

"Who?"

"Me. Duh"

"Writing a book, yes you can, that I know, but will we ever get to read the book?"

Are we short of nice words like you go gal, I believe in you, you can do it, the sky is the limit. When did we get old? Anyway in your 30's there is no sugarcoating. This friend knows me and knows that my undoing is not being consistent. Yes if I set my mind on it surely I can do it but am I consistent enough to push through, to continue , am I disciplined enough to show up even when I don't feel like it. This was my lacking ingredient. Definitely not my Aha moment but confirming what we all do to ourselves.

Nurture your dream and push through no matter the distractions stay focused, remain disciplined and when time and chance knocks on your door be ready. 

This trip had a lot of reflections, affirmations and positive vibes. I enjoyed swimming , corrections please I enjoyed snorkling. You should have seen me under water its like I was always meant for it. We had great chemistry. In your 30's is it adult enough to say you can't swim when all this little children are embarrassing me in the pool with their prowess.

So here we go again, you guessed right. I made another promise though this time backed it up with a little cash to make it interesting. That in time for our next trip I will have learned how to tread water or part with a good amount of money. For now I Guess am too broke to loose so I might as well learn this sport.

I have two challenges for now- write a book and learn swimming.

How will being consistent help? one page/ blog at a time, one class at a time will sharpen my skill. This me and you will need even to apply in life. Keep getting better, conquer new heights, small wins, try out new ideas, new ways, perfect your skill.

"Change yourself if you want to change the world around you"

Well am uncomfortable with the world around me at the moment and am ready to have that inward change. Are you?

Ps. My friend in hospital was discharged. Turned out her birthday was that week and she didn't want to add another year in hospital. Talk of will power ( I know, how could I have not known of her birthday. I can explain. Story for another day.)

with Love,

the WOMAN in me.

IT'S BEEN A MINUTE

 It's been a minute, maybe hours or days or months, who am I kidding it's been years.

So yes this woman took a break, a break from the world, a break from social media, a break from the lime light. It wasn't easy but it was needed. If you know me you know I love the click of the camera but that didn't excite me anymore. I was happy being behind the scene.

A lot happened, Covid happened and it came with its share.

There were losses - finances, relationships, source of income, self esteem, confidence and much more.

There were gains - trust, bond, spiritual, humility, friendship, new beginnings, new careers.

I learned to begin, to start again, to rise, to dust myself up, to trust in God more, to live by faith. I learned to BELIEVE.

And yes AM COMING OUT OF MY SHELL.

It may be slow but its a step. 

Amazingly I used to come back and read  my blog just to encourage myself and I realized the power of journaling. I thank God I had to share my blog with a friend who was going through a rough patch just as a testimony to hold on and remain hopeful.

Don't loose hope dear WOMAN these mountains you see now you have the power to overcome. Keep praising in the corridors, the doors will open, help will come, things will be better. No matter how long the night is Morning will come.  

I face the world now with all the responsibilities and gains and all the abundance it has to offer. I come out now with EXPERIENCE, a NEW PERCEPTION, TRANSFORMED MIND. I empty out the negative and give space for only positive things and things that bring joy in my life. Do not contaminate your heart with negative things, control what is in your container, what you choose to allow in- Joel Osteen.

And yes welcome back.

with Love,

the WOMAN in me.

BEHAVIORAL CHANGES IN CHILDREN

Am seated at my office and I glance at the clock on my computer, it's 4:45pm. Am thinking to myself I have 15 minutes to go home; am not ready.

I have a preschooler, an infant, a nanny and a husband who are all waiting for me at home. I have had a long day and I just want to get away/ run away from my duty waiting for me at home. I wish I could just call and tell them am getting late, I have a meeting or an event am attending. Don't get me wrong I love my family and am grateful for the gift of family in my life. This was one time my prayer point.

I straighten my blouse, dust my shoes and pick my bag. My other duty calls and I have to obey.

I make my way home, I walk up the stairs and ring the bell.

My preschooler opens in excitement, a warm hug follows with praises of mummy, mummy you are home. Of course am asked what I have bought for him, at times there are snacks- a thank you kiss or hug follows, sometimes I just explain it was along day and I did not carry anything to which he understands and hopes next time I get a goody to bring.

My infant is seated peacefully with the nanny watching Television. At the sound of my voice excitement sets in, on seeing me now he is in cloud nine. He wants to jump to me, if only he could, he stretches up his arms for me to pick him up. I give him a kiss on the cheek and head over to freshen myself.

Now the house is in a different mood. My wish is to quickly prepare dinner in time so that we can all retire to bed early. My preschooler has an early morning to go to school, my nanny has to sleep early in time for next day and I also have to sleep early for tomorrow. Remember now my infant does not want the nanny to hold him and he is now cranky, the nanny also wants to relax spending the whole day with an infant ain't easy. Thanks to CBC my preschooler has homework waiting for me to do together.

As I rush through all this my husband arrives, he passed through gym and he enters all worn out. All he can do is help in holding the baby or have some homework done with our preschooler.

My children now are a bit relaxed, my clingy preschooler is with me in the kitchen cooking. Once we are done we have to fight feeding, you should see him feed well when with the nanny.

Whatever happens to these kids when mummy arrives????

Anyway let me get back to work, kids need to be fed and sleep, my nanny is continuing with her daily briefing as I work and delegate some duties. CBC homework done, house clean, preparations for tomorrow done, we sip on our lemon water as we unwind.

It wasn't bad after all.  We made it with all the tantrums and excitement. The day ended well. God is great, He surely gives us what we are equipped to handle.

Do not let fear consume you. In all situations breathe in and out, straighten your cloth and face it with God, knowing you are made for this.


with Love,
the WOMAN in me.

THE POWER OF A NAME

Phillipians 2:10-11
That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the father,

John 14:13-14
And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name I will do it..

Do you see how important it was for Jesus to protect His name, that by the mention of "JUST" his name things move and miracles happen.

What is your name? What was the story behind your naming?

1st Chronicles 4:9
The prayer of Jabez
Now Jabez was more honorable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabez, saying, "Because I bore him in pain." And Jabez called out to the God of Israel,"If only you would bless me and enlarge my territory! May your hand be with me and keep me from harm, so that I would be free from pain." And God granted the request of Jabez...

Notice what the mother had named the son- Jabez which means pain. From his prayer he is asking God to keep him away/ free of pain, which means his life must have been of pain. All this beginning with his name. So when everyone was calling him pain and he would respond then that means he is agreeing and as a result the universe sends more pain to his life.

What have you called your children? How would you address them? What do you speak in your life, the life of your children, your husband, your family, your friends, your neighbors, your clients, your employers, your employees?

Hakuna mwanaume ni faithful.
Universe: Your wish is my command.
Boom- even your once good husband haoni skirt na macho.

Haki huyu mtoto haskiangi maneno. Kuja hapa mjinga wewe.
Universe: Your wish is my command.
Boom- Your kids become slow and unmanageable.

Haki ni kama nilirogwa. Natafuta kazi sipati.
Universe: Your wish is my command.
Boom- You will tarmac all your life.

The good news is that you can change your story and unchange the history. Jabez was aware of this and therefore he asked of God of Israel to keep him away from pain. Pain that had followed him from the time his mother conceived him till the time he was seeking God's intervention.

Be conscious of how you speak to and about yourself. Do not speak negatively even in a joke. The universe does not know the difference.

Exodus 3:13-14
Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them,'The God of your fathers has sent me to you,'and they ask me,'What is his name?' Then what shall I tell them?"
God said to Moses,"I am who I am. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I am has sent me to you."

Now you understand when we are told we were made in the image of God. His name is I AM.
So anything you say after I am it becomes, for you have mentioned the name of the Lord in it.

Therefore use positive words:

I am happy. I am loved. I am blessed. I am highly favored. I am renewed in my youth. I am beautiful. I am a good friend. I am the best mother to my children. I am successful.

Start everyday commanding your day and sending positive vibes and see the tremendous change it will have on your life.

Speak life in every dead area of your life.

I was joking the other day- I named my son "a brave lion". If you see how he behaves even when playing with his peers, he always wants to dominate, he has to be the one who chooses what they play with, where they play, and he has to be the leader of the pack and I was like yes this is what you were named. If I see any character that is not what he was meant to be I point it out and address it.

My second born- "a winner, ruler of the home", that's what his name stands for. This one controls the mood of the house and everything in it. He has had his downs but he has always come out a winner. We thank God.

I love how parents who are conscious of the power use it even when speaking to their children.

"Daktari wee thaga kiki par ni ma hospital"

"Madam CEO is awake"

There are couples who even use on their spouses with words like, "My King", "My Queen"

Self love is important so first and foremost change your world before you change the world. Change how you address and carry yourself and people will meet you up there. Remember if people look down on you it's because you yourself look down on you.

Angie Smart(This lady guses herself up. She is her own cheerleader and when I look at her I see the smart beautiful lady, nyaboro she confesses.)

The world will treat you how you treat yourself.

So who am I?

I am God's child. I am Blessed. I am highly favored.

Ask yourself, who are you? What is your name?????



with Love,
the WOMAN in me.