Hi All,
It's been a while.
You are not the only people I neglected, sorry for that, my friends and family are also complaining. My all time excuse "my baby takes all my time".
Nearly went to a depression juggling work, family time baby and nannies.
You get this nanny that is very good with baby but house work zero. Not that I minded coz baby was a priority but when nanny from shags realizes the true beauty she has become after gaining a few kilos and learning the importance of Fair and Lovely then she becomes all over with every Tom Dick and Harry then you know you are in trouble. Your baby is no longer a priority and occasionally baby is left sleeping alone and she runs for a quickie. Caught her once , twice then decided enough is enough. I guess when you have a little creature in your care you become more patient with a nanny that bonds well with them that at times they make you feel like a prisoner in your own home. I nowadays refuse to judge a mum who has countless nannies.
Having a support system is very important. My boss ( hope one day he gets to read my blog) is the most understanding friendly employer one will ever get. It was as if the company had a baby, gave encouragement, resources to read on embracing motherhood, changed my working hrs plus any emergencies I had and knowing a first time mum sometimes even smallest things to baby can be an emergency. I really value and appreciate this man. He truly is making this journey stress free.
So back to baby now. Initially we had sleepless nights. Baby used to cry all night reason I failed to understand. Thought it was colic but thank God that stage passed. I would have nearly lost it. Trust me it's not easy. I salute every mother who maintains sanity in all this. I thank God we are sleeping, now he only wakes up like 2 to 3 times in the night to breastfeed, am fine with that.
Now we are crawling..... HURRAYYYY.... But wait a minute you must have the energy to keep up with him. Everything has to be kept high enough out of reach and away. This young man has energy he literally drains us until at times we have to decide with hubby who will play with him when the other relaxes. Did I mention he is only 9 months cant wait for terrible two.
In all this I count it joy.
To my friends hope you understand since now 80% of my stories will be about my son- his first word , his first steps, I guess just about his milestones in general and nanny dramas. I guess am just happy at this new role.
Reach out to us we tend to forget about outings and gatherings because any spare time we want to rush home and see how baby is doing and bonding time with family. Just try to squeeze in the picture/ our life, the love is still there.
I have learned to also have me time. It is important to just relax and breathe in recollect your energy.
I am slowly reaching out back to my normal life. It will never be the same. I now value true friendship- no time chit chat with people who don't add value to my life. I choose my battles wisely- Why waste my energy in things that will only derail me. I am more success oriented- I want the best for this young man and his siblings. I guess it will never be normal, it can never be normal. I have to work extra hard and hustle on another level. It can never be business as usual.
All thanks to this wonderful gift. It pushes you to places you have never dreamt of. Coming to think that you had all this in you, you just needed to tap into IT. I am grateful I did.
I love this journey and would not trade it for anything.
I guess am officially back.
with love,
the WOMAN in me.
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